welly, welly, well....

so I had this weird dream that I was like.. I think I was on my way to Spain or something- like I kept getting frustrated and I got on a plane to Valencia- but then I chickened out and got off.. and It happened all over again.. I get frustrated and then im on the plane to Valencia but then the second time we are like 10 minutes into the flight so I pressed the “emergency landing” button and we landed… so then I was stuck in some random airport for a bit but it was like, the airport in Spain. I went to buy some food but I only had american cash and the girls at the counter were super nice and just started giving me free food… which was really really good.

then I was a part of some sorta “team”- like a bunch of people I didn’t know… at one point I said something like “this is a great life you guys, I mean right now, at this point we are somewhere in the USA and we don’t even know where!”- it was like we were some traveling crew.. but we were supposed to be ‘good’- like no parties, no drinking, etc… So anyways Sun (from LOST) was there and her husband was abusing her (I dont think it was Jin…) and it seemed like we were in my house (ohio) when we finally managed to help her escape…. like we were pretending to help her husband (jin?) find her but we knew she was long gone. 

so then we were having some party- like hawaiian themed.. it was basically an office party. We were all dressed up but then this girl I was friends with (dont think i know her in RL… lol) was like “I want to go to the rave next door!” and I was like “me too! Lets go!” so we went and I remember she was rly tall and wearing heels, I had on my black “Leather” jacket and slightly lower heels.. I was like “I think i should leave my jacket here” and she laughed and said “oh we’re only going for a few minutes!” so I kept it on.. and we got there and at first we couldn’t figure out where we were- it was like a big gym but it was empty- like they were setting up in the dark or just waiting for people- but there were no lights- no music, nothing.. so we were walking around this huge complex looking for the party and we couldn’t find it… and all during this time there seemed to be some sort of element of danger- like we were hiding from someone- or maybe just trying to not get caught at a rave. So we ended up hanging out with a bunch of random guys in my basement. it like, wasn’t my basement, it was still in the complex, but it LOOKED like my basement. so we were all chillin and I suggested TPing someone’s house. oh- it was totally in my basement though because I was thinking something like my dad is asleep upstairs and we were taking his sam’s club toilet paper. Some of the guys were being wusses and were too scared to do it and were making all these dumb excuses. 

and thats about where I left off… 

oh but somewhere mixed in there I was planning to hang out with my friend’s ex boyfriend and one of his friends- we were supposed to go to some movie or something but I was taking too long trying to secure our bird matisse- see, my brother and I were living in some kind of dorm room- it was like we were hiding/homeless/traveling or something whack like that .. oh man there was so much random stuff going on! and we were in Spain I think, and we had my mom’s blackberry- it was like we were using it to just go to the store or something but instead we were in Spain…anyways Matisse was with us and I didn’t know where to put him so I was spending all this time trying to find a spot for him…. it was just… so random. and I eventually did meet up with the guy- he didn’t care that I was super late but his friend was being a little bitch about it. thats all I really remember… man I wish we could easily playback our dreams because idk wtf was going on last night!

so last night I had this whack dream about Zombies.. I just started reading Jane Eyre and playing lame FarmVille on facebook so I was like taking care of some kinds with this guy (pretty sure it was my brother) and I had to take care of Little Jane Eyre and like, a couple other kids and maybe a fish and a chicken.. Not really sure what all this was about.. But for some reason there were Zombies who were like ‘judging us’ like the smoke monster and they killed this guy outside and left- but there was one part where the zombie was like dead and then he got up again and was like following us around and finally he went away… and then we were fine, but then the chicken did something bad (dunno what) and I was like trying to protect it when another zombie came for him and we hid in some sort of pantry with the kids.. and I told everyone to pray that God would send someone to help us (it was that kinda situation- God and Satan sending things out) but then I was like ‘wtf why am I protecting this chicken? so I like held the chicken and said ‘im sorry! I love you!’ and I kissed the chicken and set him on the ground and he was really scared.. and the zombie came in and took the chicken and kinda left.. and then he came back and he was kinda telling me that the previous zombie was not really a zombie and didn’t work with him. This zombie was nice and he was talking to us and he said something about some famous guy being a zombie and then he looked at me and said something in spanish (dont remember what..) and I was so shocked that he spoke to me in Spanish and that I understood it and I was like ‘ahhh!!!!! yo se!’ and I dont know what happened after that… Then I was at home and Blanca was there sleeping under the daybed but she was like, different- kinda in her body that God gave her in heaven because she was much bigger like a lion and she had not tumor sticking out from behind her ear. I layed on the floor with her for a really long time and then it was almost like I woke up and instead of hugging her I was hugging a photo of her- the photo popped out of the paper- but I had been sleeping with a photograph of her and I thought about the part in Jane Eyre where she is hugging her doll and she says that as humans we all need something to love- and I mean I have meeko but blanca loves you back…

anyways there is another weird dream. Happy Sunday.